Lookie, lookie: my new award, and given to me by my friend, the writer DJ Kirkby of Chez Aspie fame. It comes with a challenge, though, so unless you’re interested in reading 10 honest things about me, look away now….
1. Although I have played the violin seriously since I was five, I often neglect to tell people.I just forget to mention it. There are friends I’ve known for years who never knew I played because I just never thought to tell them. They often get angry at me when they eventually find out, one way or another. (But maybe I’ve just remedied that).
2. I’ve had a life-long and at times incapacitating fear of loud noises. Gun shots (even toy guns), fire works, back-firing cars, that sort of thing. When I started to have children I was determined to get over it so I wouldn’t pass my fear onto them. I’m not sure I succeeded.
3. Like DJ, I have a real problem with telephones. I don’t like making phone calls, and the idea of actually calling someone even vaguely in an authoritative position (an editor, an agent, a director, a publicist..) fills me with horror. I often need a friend sitting by my side to force me to do it.
4. I have a real problem with self-confidence, in that I have to work hard to have any at all. And yet…
5. ….I fear I have a superiority complex at the same time. Go figure.
6. When I was twelve, my best friend died of leukemia. That night, I saw his ghost in my room and spoke to him. I’ve never seen a ghost since.
7. Years of therapy, which started after my son died, have led me to understand that my greatest fear of all is that of not being heard.
8. I long to own and ride a Vespa, but my husband and sons won’t let me.
8a. I allow them not to let me.
9. I long to go to an ashram in India, but am afraid what will happen to my life if I do.
10. I often astonish myself with my naivete and innocence, although after 5 decades of life I’ve decided to just give up and embrace it.
And now, according to the rules, I’m suppose to pass this award on to 10 other bloggers, but either my subversive streak or timidity is stopping me. So, I’ll throw this open to everyone believing that we all need and deserve awards, and anyway, everyone’s life is fascinating once you start digging.
So true, and these random meme things see throw up some fascinating facts!
I can relate to so many of these. Scarily so.
Apart from the violin. Oh how I wish:-)
Sue, thank you for using these memes, which can be quite annoying, as a space for meaningful revelations instead of trivia. I can relate to quite a few of these too – the lack of confidence coupled with superiority complex, oh yes! Strange, eh?
T xx
You are one amazing woman! It is an honour to know you. Lol to 8a. Re: no 7…I think it best that you don’t read the ‘Breaking Point’ chapter in my book eh? xo
Yes, amazing how much truth from ten such small questions. And how we all nod along with some and shake our heads at others…
Thank you for having the courage to share this, Sue.
Oh I so relate to your ten things – as Lane says, scarily so – especially the one about going to the ashram!
I really loved this bit of revelation about you.
xxx
You play the violin? And you never mentioned it? Ooooh I’m cross now! :-).I hope you still play now!
Thanks everyone. And yep, I still play the violin in an amateur orchestra here called The Kensington Philharmonic. We give 3 concerts a year….see what I mean, I never mention it. So weird. Wonder what that means… 🙂